PCOS September Update || The PCOS Diaries

It has been a while since my first PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome) post, and there have been some updates! If you haven't read that one yet, you can catch it hereIt gives good backstory as to how I was diagnosed, and the fairly horrendous experience I had, but I won't spoil it for you. Long story short, I have PCOS. That's... basically all you need to know.

Anyway. I was just sort of bumbling along, not really worried about it. Day to day, the majority of the time it doesn't really affect my life. However, I started my last period on the day of the blood moon (auspicious, right?), and seeing as it was over three weeks before I was due to spend the weekend in drag at DragWorld I was reasonably happy. Although my periods are not what you would call regular, when they did happen they followed a fairly set pattern. Light for around a week, heavy for around a week, light for around a week, finished. I thought I would be fine.

No such bloody luck.

Instead it was 34 days of consistently heavy bleeding, and it was fairly horrendous. Not only was it expensive, but I also ruined near on every pair of pants I own and it ended up exhausting me. I was pretty much at wits end by day 28ish, and scheduled a doctors appointment to see if there was anything that could be done. At that point, I was ready for them to take everything out if it meant I would never have to bleed for over 30 days straight again. I cannot begin to explain how bone tired I was, no matter how much sleep I got, and how I've still not recovered yet. I've started adding in an iron supplement in the hopes of feeling less fatigued, but I'm still recovering.

Anyway. Turns out there's not much the doctor could do. At least, not much that she told me she could do. I was insanely nervous for this appointment, having not had great experiences in the past, and all I wanted was to be listened to. She did listen, and she was really lovely, but she also told me the only thing she could put me on was the progestogen only pill, or the mini pill as it's also known. I don't know why she told me this was the only option. 

The only downside of this? Until I've been on it for a while, I don't know if it's going to help. Some people on the mini pill have no periods, some have irregular spotting, and some just carry on business as normal. So. That's great. 

But I've been on it for nearly a week now and experienced no side effects, which is a positive, but only time will tell if it makes any difference to my irregular, heavy periods. I hope that it does, because I genuinely don't know what else can be done.

In other PCOS news, I have an appointment with a dietitian on Thursday. I am INSANELY anxious about this. I have had a terrible, disordered relationship with food for over a decade now, and I don't know how this appointment is going to go or what they are going to tell me or what I am going to have to do. I also know that PCOS isn't all to do with weight, so even if I do get down to a reasonably healthy weight, it might not make a difference. And honestly? I am reasonably happy with who I am right now. It's taken so long to get to be almost comfortable in my own skin that I'm scared it's all going to go tits up again.

But again, only time will tell. I'll write a longer update on the whole dietitian stuff at some point down the line, and explore further my feelings etc surrounding the whole palava.

Until then, stay groovy.

Love, Cordelia